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Рэнди в midsummer night's dream

наконец у нас передышка между событиями, а то, то OHP, swan, Джуди, потом израиль, потом встреча каста, потом томми, еще первод с января до почти конца июня у меня время съедал практически все, не очень до прошлого было, да и хватало прекрасного...)

помните наверное вот эта фотка всплыла в прошлом году? django в рендином соо выкладывала ее



ну и в большом размере не удержусь, пусть будет, умираю просто на это глядя))

ну вот еще тут кое чего всякого про этот спектакль)

Сначала отчет и фотки sita_moonlight


2006-05-16
Okay, here it is. Meeting Randy: My experience.
So, I arrived at the Alabama Shakespeare Festival around 10:30AM for the Backstage tour that was around 11. It turns out EVERYONE that went on the backstage tour (except for two people) was going on it hoping to spot Randy. Haha. I made some friends during that tour but unfortunately we didn’t spot Randy yet.




THE FIRST SEMI-MEETING

After the tour (since I had already staked out the backstage door) I showed all the fans I had met by the backstage door where it was. The women who had seen A Midsummer Night’s Dream the night before spotted a bunch of the actors from the play pulling into the parking lot so we decided to wait and see if Randy would show up. This is the first time I spotted Randy. He pulled in in a teal colored car a few minutes later (someone with dark hair was driving him. I assume it was Simon but I was too transfixed by Randy to pay attention.) Anyway, he was sprinting (well, more like frolicking. Seriously, the boy is so gay he doesn’t RUN he FROLICKS) to the backstage door. Immediately I called out his name. He yelled back “Hey guys!” So I asked if we could have an autograph. He said actually he was late and tried the backstage door which happened to be locked. He tugged on it and said, “They locked me out. Shit.” and started running to the side door. I then yelled to him and asked him if he’d be by the backstage door after the show. He yelled back, “Yes. I’ll be right here.” and disappeared around the corner. Guh, I was already in heaven and I hadn’t even seen the play or really MET him yet. Oh, also he was wearing a navy blue t-shirt and tight jeans that fucking hugged his ass. Oh my god, if you think his ass is amazing on TV you HAVE to see it in person. It’s like bigger and guh. God. He was also carrying a backpack and his hair was a dirty blonde color and around QaF Season 5 length.


THE PLAY

Next, I went to see the play. I was in row B and dead center. I would’ve taken pictures during it but the way the stage was set up was that it was almost level with the audience and there weren’t really lights shining in the actor’s eyes so I would’ve been easily caught. Anyway, the play was FABULOUS. It was most definitely the weirdest play I have ever seen though.

Lyslander was probably the most normal character in the play that he played. Cobweb (the fairy he played) was great. He wore a pink nightgown and walked around on his toes. Oh, and he liked hopped also… all the fairy’s did when the queen fairy told them to stop walking though. At one point when he was playing Cobweb he smiled and did the whole tongue-bite smile thing too. It was so fucking adorable.

During the play the play he also took off the nightgown and was back to playing Lyslander… in his boxers! Guh! They weren’t that thick either and I was so close to the stage I could see the outline of the head of his penis through the boxers. Ahahaha. My best friend noticed that too. I was like *drool*. And his ass in those boxers… GUH! So big… so pretty. Oh, also at one point while playing Lyslander it looked like he had this bulge in his pants too. It made me drool a lot. When the boy first took his shirt off too not too far into the play, I just about drooled all over myself. I also noticed a slight blonde happy trail… and the best muscles… and no underarm hair… and can I please keep him?

Ahem. Anyway, I’m getting off track.

The third character he played Flute (Thisbe), I have to say was the funniest. He was playing a man playing a woman so he had to speak in a high womanly voice for most of that part. It was fucking hilarious. I was rolling. At one poin the was switching from a high voice to a low voice and pretending he was puking up blood on his “lover”. It was great. He also wore a scarf on his head when Flute was playing Thisbe. Heh. And when he was performing in the “play” as Thisbe he… stuck his tongue through this guys fingers pretending to kiss his “lover” through the wall… and I really wanted those fingers to be mine. Le sigh.

A few of the characters also sang during the play but Randy only participated in a few group pieces which made me sad.

On a few side notes, at the very end of the play a male that was sitting in the balcony kept coughing at the end of the play and Randy kept smirking and looking up the balcony every time that person coughed. I was too distracted by him to look up an try to spot who it was though. Oh, also I was surprised when Randy actually ran onstage since, you know, he frolicks in real life. Aha.



THE REAL MEETING

I knew he was going to dart for the backstage door right after he got his costume off so while he and the other characters were bowing onstage I ran (along with my best friend Michael) to the backstage door. My mom also followed behind us about a minute later. Sure enough, about 5 minutes later he exited the backstage door.

Basically, here’s a transcript of our conversation:
Me: Randy! Hi! I’m Alison. (I then shook his hand, he has a soft handshake. Slightly effeminate, but not too light. Guh. And he was all smiles. Double guh.)
Randy: Hey!
Me: You did an amazing job today!
Randy: Thank you!
Me: Can I have an autograph… and a picture? (I was trying to flip through the program and find the page with his name on it but I was so nervous I kind of just thrust the program at him) Um. You can sign where you want. Yeah… the part where you spoke in that high voice was really funny. (God, I must’ve sounded idiotic. I couldn‘t even think of the name Thisbe)
Randy: Thank you.
Me: Yeah we drove all the way from Florida to see you.
Randy: Where in Florida?
My mom: We drove from Tampa.
Randy: How far is that?
Me: About 7 ½ hours… 430 miles.
Randy: Wow! Well thanks for coming!
Me: Of course! Would you mind if I had a picture with you now? (I probably giggled here. Ugh.)
Anyway, we then posed for a picture and I got as close to him as possible so our sides and arms were touching and guh. At one point right before the picture was taken I looked over at him and smiled and he looked over at me and smiled at me with that brilliant sunshine smile and I just about died right there. I didn’t though (ha) and Michael and my mom took the pictures of us and then he headed back to the car he arrived in, thanked us for coming, and said bye.

First, here's a picture of my best friend and I at the play before it started. I look so much better in this pic.
(фотку с подругой я не буду постить)

Guh. Here is a picture of Randy and I. I have more by the other ones are developed yet so I’ll post those ones later, though they’re practically the same as this one. Ignore how shitty I looked and just look at how beautiful Randy is. Yes. Guh. I’m still on cloud nine. Oh, and I might go see Amadeus now with two of the fans I met. Tehee.



God. Ew. Why did I have to look so bad? lmao. And I just have to add... my mom just pointed out it looks like we're holding hands, actually I thought of that earlier but yes. It really does, doesn't it? Hahaha. I wish. My mom just said "You two look like a couple!" Again... I wish. Ahaha. Oh Randy, why do you have to be gay?


Oh and here’s also a picture of his messy autograph.



The front of the Alabama Shakespeare Festival. ;]



следующий ее пост был
с фотками и с такими фангерлскими комментриями к ним))

I look horrible. Ignore how horrible I look. Really. LOL.

I have this whole "Randy, will you have my babies?" look on my face and Randy just looks confused.

And another one of us. Those jeans are like God. Seriously. Too bad I didn't get a picture of his ass. But look at the crotch. Tight jeans are yum.

And guh. Again, I look so bad.
Ew. And fat. I swear I'm not that fat. :x

And my smile... just ew. Guh.

ну и фотки







а это чьи фотки я честно скажу не знаю, но не ее, потому что как она сама написала: Too bad I didn't get a picture of his ass.)) ну и вообще, это не ее фотки










дальше чуть фоточек со спектакля) *шепотом* босикооом!)









вот это меня очень занимает...





дальше крохотулечное мелкое видео, только и можно что нему чуть представить как спектакль выглядел из зала... с галерки)



еще дальше - аудио
первый акт
я хоть тресни не помню откуда взяла, давно уже дело было, и не записала нигде, балда, ну сколько раз можно на одни и теже грабли наступать?, а файл сам не подписан, что это с ренди
но когда я скачивала, я была точно уверена, что это с ним, было там написано, да и голос..

короче, вот

www.megaupload.com/?d=CSVRF35D
на простоплеер вроде не заливается, формат wma, весит 20мб

ну и еще чуток)






и ах)





вот)

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ой! а помните весной аукцион в помощь Японии был?

вот тема была pay.diary.ru/~qaf/p152012723.htm
скотт ренди питер и мишель участвовали

вот это аудиозапись Ренди... э?)




зы выиграла fraserette
аж за 260 баксов кажется
хм, любопытно...
UPD поправочка, не знаю как так вышло, но выиграла то на самом деле rockie2010 (поставившая на 10 баксов меньше)
она участвует в конкурсе дизайна onecondoms.com/design/designs/design/2067, об этом и в сообщении речь, и запись эту она использует призывая голосовать за ее вариант)

я залила на простоплеер, если надо, могу куда-нить еще типа файлообменника... там всего 600кб

ЗЗЫ по непонятной причине сам плеер перестал у меня и не только, отображаться в посте, можно попробовать по этой ссылке
prostopleer.com/#/search?q=artist%3A%D0%A0%D1%8...

@темы: Рэнди аудио, Рэнди Харрисон

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немного интересного (на мой взгляд) про коллажи-манипы

не фанатские, а официальные обманки)
хотя фанатские тоже интересно бывает, особенно старые, когда следующие поколения фанатов уже и не могут с первого взгляда понять что к чему
например, все знают наверное фотку "Ренди в наручниках", но возможно не все знают, что это не фотка, а чистой воды манип,рендина голова взята из фотосессии для журнала адвокат 2002-го года





или как-то зимой я выкладывала манип для амадеус, тоже, если не знать - можно и не сообразить
или совсем на днях фотка-манип когда-то продававшаяся на ebay
да много забавного... коллажи с гейлом и ренди вообще отдельная тема, был момент хотелось собрать в кучу те, на которых я знаю люди путаются иногда

но это я отвлеклась, я же про "официальные" хотела)
конечно они тоже есть и иногда не вполне очевидно, что это не совсем фотка
вот я не знала, не обращала внимания, пока Эйрелл не выложила у себя фото каста из адвоката 2004 и не поинтересовалась, почему на ней нет Ренди (вот здесь pay.diary.ru/~Sumahama/p163709551.htm Эйрелл, надеюсь ты не против ссылки, если против, то я сорри, уберу)
почему там нет Ренди - это я сразу знала, потому что он в это время репетирует на бродвее Wicked, но только отвечая, я вспомнила-сообразила, что на обложке то он есть! и только посмотрев на обложку до меня дошло, что его туда влепили на фотошопе, взяв оригинал из промофото 4-го сезона)) (upd: также возможно, что фото было сделано в середине апреля, во время премьеры 4-го сезона в ЛА на которой Рэнди отсутствовал)
вот фото


а вот обложка



вот промка


а вот в таком виде это появилось в адвокате на обложке и внутри статьи)



И еще, попалось мне по зиме в буржуйском фандоме, сама бы я вряд ли такое заметила, хотя кто знает
но в любом случае это не мое наблюдение

обложка пятого сезона




и знаете что?? Рука! которой Гейл обнимает Хэла - это ведь походу рука Рози!!! какое однако кощунство)
а вот кисть руки чья, тоже Рози, или прилепили все-таки гейлову?
надо покрупнее поискать, а то так не понятно))





вот)

upd: рука ренди - это на самом деле кисть руки актера сыгравшего карла!
про остальные, выявленные коллективными усилиями ужасы обложки, в каментах)

@темы: ebay, манипы, интересности QAF, забавности QAF

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всякие глупости в кучу бестолковую, сорри)

забавное встречается про e-bay
чего там только не выставляли на продажу
например бутылку с водой из "ванны" в которой мокли Брайан со Стоквеллом, правда вроде особого ажиотажа вокруг этого лота не было)

а вот такой манип пытались продать, выдавая за реальное фото Гейла )

под заголовком Gale-Harold-Brian-Kinney-Queer-as-Folk-sexy-photo-1

хотя на самом деле это promo shot of David Boreanaz from Angel, ну, за исключением головы))
жаль, история не сохранила, сколько за это хотели денег)

дальше вопрос
никто случайно не в курсе, вот такое видео с Хэлом кажется 2002-го года ныне где-нибудь существует? в оригинале оно называлось Hal Sparks From Sundance и было на сайте bthere.tv
теперь нет... сама сейчас видео искать не могу, но может кому встречалось, может оно теперь под каким другим названием... а я бы посмотрела))







ну и напоследок
вспомнила тут эту фразу Патрика Антоша, про браслет Брайана.
"На самом деле, поклонники сделали браслет таким популярным - реакция была невероятной. Сначала у нас были сложности, потому что браслет был один, а нам нужны были копии для дублёров и т.п. "

и опять голову ломаю
какие дублеры? где? зачем? и ну ведь весь сериал на капсы разобран в буквальном смысле, ну неужто не нашли бы наблюдательные люди, или нашли может, да мне не попадалось...

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ренди, сканы

увидела вчера днем аватарку авторства magic dance для tunka-s и вспомнила, что давным давно уже хотела сканы выложить и благополучно забыла))

это фотосессия, которую мы знаем по статье Саймона о Ренди в NY magazine, но сканы сделаныиз одного немецкого издания о кафе, уже успела забыть и подробности) и они покрупнее

вот, мож кому пригодится добро такое)

 

 

@темы: Рэнди фото, Рэнди Харрисон

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очень хочу порекомендовать))

хотя даж разрешения не спросила, сорри)
 gulinarazig перевела отчет китайского фаната о спектакле Ренди "Эдуард Второй", за что ей большое спасибо!
точнее отчет не о спектакле, а о встречах с Ренди после спектакля
очень интересный отчет, на мой взгляд и вкус
pay.diary.ru/~gulinarazig/p164405361.htm

@темы: Рэнди Харрисон

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фик от Юли

прекрасный... Юля, спасибо еще раз!

20.07.2011 в 16:51

Пишет  reda_79:

Драббл для Саши (moveforever)
Название: Прикоснись ко мне
Автор: reda_79
Бета: не бечено
Рейтинг: R (с натяжкой)
Пейринг: Брайан Кинни/Джастин Тейлор, Итан Голд/Джастин Тейлор
Жанр: немножко ангста, романс
Размер: драббл
Таймлайн: начало третьего сезона
Дисклеймер: Все права на персонажей принадлежат Шоутайм и Коулип, текст мне.
От автора: Чувствую, мне надо бы тут кучу предупреждений наставить)), но не буду.
Скажу только, что фик Джастино-центричный.
Дорогая моя  moveforever ты хотела чего-то жизнеутверждающего, веселого, флаффного, гы - получилось че-то совсем не то, но там все хорошо в конце, честно-честно).

Джастин бездумно водит карандашом по бумаге – штрих, еще один, линия. Он рисует одно и тоже снова и снова, это похоже на наваждение. Длинные пальцы, ладонь, испещренная черточками, запястье с выступающими венками и браслет из ракушек каури… Руки Брайана. Опять.
Джастин может только подозревать, когда это началось. Тогда он еще был с Итаном.

Джастин безотчетно старался избегать встреч с Брайаном, каждое их случайное столкновение поднимало на поверхность что-то почти забытое, спрятанное глубоко внутри. Но Брайан был частым гостем в закусочной, где он работал, нельзя было прятаться вечно.
Джастин надеялся или боялся, он не мог точно сказать, что Брайан перестанет с ним общаться, будет игнорировать его, у чертова Кинни всегда хорошо получалось игнорировать, но этого не случилось. Они разговаривали, Брайан в своей обычной манере, отвешивал едкие саркастичные замечания по тому или иному поводу.
А потом Джастин узнал об обвинениях, выдвинутых против Брайана. Он не смог остаться в стороне.

И вот уже он стоит в дверях лофта и завязывает браслет на запястье бывшего любовника. Джастин видит, как бьется жилка под его прикосновениями и смотрит, как завороженный, боясь поднять глаза. Он пугается собственного желания, возникшего словно ниоткуда, наклониться и поцеловать туда, где бьется пульс, провести языком по линиям ладони… Когда Джастин, наконец, решается посмотреть на него, в глазах Брайана невозможно ничего прочесть. Он спрашивает про какого-то жениха и Джастину приходится потратить некоторое время, чтобы понять, что речь идет об Итане. Страшась окончательно потерять рассудок, Джастин сбегает прочь. Он бежит к Итану, стремясь раствориться в его объятиях, стереть мысли о Брайане.
Но приходит ночь, а с ней сны, в которых знакомые руки обнимают его за шею, большие пальцы ласкают щеки, подушечки пальцев скользят по губам. Ощущения так реальны и он стонет, тянется к ним и просыпается в объятиях Итана…

Днем он почти не думает о Брайане, но едва закрывает глаза, как все начинается снова. Он чувствует прикосновения к волосам, настойчивое давление на плечи, ладони на ягодицах и, господи боже мой, пальцы, обхватывающие член.
Итан никак не комментирует влажные пятна на простынях, вместо этого он дарит кольцо. Джастин долго крутит его на пальце, так чуждо и так нелепо оно выглядит.

Сны прекращаются внезапно, словно то самое кольцо перекрыло им доступ.
Но однажды, слушая музыку, льющуюся с одного из каналов радиостанций, Джастин берет карандаш и рисует. Еще не закончив набросок, он знает, что это. Руки Брайана.



Уйдя от Итана, Джастин чувствует облегчение, как будто он вырвался из сна и, наконец, может задышать полной грудью. Он все еще рисует руки Брайана, но теперь у него есть цель. Осязать их снова, ощутить, как длинные пальцы перебирают его волосы, как крепкая ладонь ложится на горло, слегка сжимая, перемещается ниже, гладит ключицы, тянет к себе…
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Вавилон переливается разноцветными огнями, толпы жмущихся друг к другу парней танцуют под громкую музыку, но эти двое в центре зала выглядят так, как будто они здесь одни, как будто этот мир принадлежит только им, и они принадлежат друг другу.

@темы: фанфик

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Че?? про Гейла и Мишель

про то, что они встречались, были парой...
я как-то привыкла считать это байкой, слухом, а тут наткнулась на один камент 2007-го года - чуть с кровати не свалилась (я конечно маловато про гейла знаю, но...)
вот из него цитата

National Enquirer broke a story in S1 that Gale and Michelle were "dating". And in 2006 when asked at the QaF convention who Gale dated on set, Patrick Antosh made mention of the story in The Enquirer and confirmed that the "rumor" was true.

I believe he said "Well, since this story has already been broken in The National Enquirer I guess I can say it. Michelle Clunie and Gale were an "item"." ...

I don't think either person has commented on it publicly. However, Michelle did attend the after party for Uncle Bob alone and there are pictures of the two of them "together" in which they appear "close". ::shrugs:: There are pictures everywhere of that encounter.
...

Патрик подтвердил на кафовском коне 2006, что слух, который в свое время первым в 2001-м году распространил National Enquirer - это правда, гейл и мишель встречались

я бы может фыркнула и пошла дальше, но дама написавшая, больно не случайный человек в фандоме, и в частности про тот кон знает не понаслышке
это она провела тот допрос Q&A с Shawn Postoff, нехило всколыхнувний фандом
почитать можно здесь moveforever.diary.ru/p156339569.htm

фотки, о которых она (видимо, может и не эти) упоминает можно посмотреть здесь galeharold.gallery.ru/watch?a=Al9-eLVT, но собственно фотки-то ничего не прибавляют к информации и не доказывают,
а вот то, что она ссылается и цитирует слова Патрика, сказанные на публичном мероприятии, и собственно, что эти сведения исходят именно от нее, а не от кого-то другого (и тем более не от анонима, которые, кстати, зачастую и были источниками распространения фандомных баек)... от этого свидетельства мне отмахнуться довольно трудно
озадачена я, короче

жаль, пока не смогла найти транскрипта или пересказа той встречи с патриком (точнее нашла только в ныне закрытых темах в одном заброшенном жж)

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нужна помощь)

разыскиваются фики для Гилтониэль ))
АУ , Брайан и Джастин работают в Вангарде.
ну типа служебный роман
я знаю, что они есть, но я их не читала, и в этом плане совершенно бесполезна)
и искать сейчас не очень могу
так что хелп, хелп!)

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а раньше на сайте скотта

было все немного по другому
до осени 2007, там были разделы с фотками из детства и юности, которых сейчас вроде нет, были ссылки на фанатские квировские ресурсы, и был журнал, который он вел с октября 2001 до ноября 2002
там не очень много о кафе, хотя я просматривала текст даже не по диагонали а вообще кусочками пока, и текста много, но я не буду делать выборку, а выложу все целиком, как было.

но сначала несколько фоток

детство

Just two shots here. Both from when I attended Interlochen camp for the arts (in Michigan) when I was 12. One shot shows me in rehearsal for "Rip Van Winkle" my very first play. I played Rip after he woke up from his 20 year nap...already playing the "Old Guy." Doing this play is what made me decide to be an actor. The other shot shows me practicing my French Horn in one of Interlochen's bunkers...uh, I mean practice rooms.





Scott Says: The NEMC shot is of my cabin at New England Music Camp when I was 13 or 14 can't remember. It's kind of like a "Where's Waldo." See if you can find me. I was a leader of the cabin!




High School Photos

Scott Says: My first big romantic "lead" as a Prince who falls in love with a barmaid while in college in Hamburg. I sang notes so high in this show, my voice has never recovered.


Scott Says: Fantasticks: Already I've perfected my "what the f#$k" look in this shot (it's now known as a #29 special).



Scott Says: Grease: Me as Teen Angel. I've included the "review" next to the shot 'cause it' SO over-the-top. I must have payed the reviewer off. I think it's the only "rave" I've ever gotten.





Scott Says: A photo that was supposed to be used in the school paper for a weekly cloumn I was supposed to do. It ended up being a one-shot thing.



Scott Says: This was a Sondheim Musical review I wrote, directed and starred in (gee, and I'm playing a gay man now??? Really???) with a bunch of my friends. It got me out of all my classes last semester of Senior year. Hee hee hee.



а это из раздела Scott the Photographer

TV Cares Event







QAF Season Two Wrap Party(ренди оттуда все помнят, в полосатой кофте, чб фотка, а вот еще мишель)

[URL=www.radikal.ru][/URLKey makeup artist Stephen Lynch and Michelle


ну и ЖУРНАЛ СКОТТА (все не лезет, продолжение в каментах)

JOURNAL

From October 2001 to November 2002, Scott kept an online journal. In June of 2003 after six months with no new entries, he decided to officially close it due to lack of time and a desire to focus his writing on plays and screenplays. After a year and a half, the archives of his old journal are again available for reading. Use the menu on the left to select the journal entries you would like to read. Entries have not been altered from their original content except to remove dead links. At this time, Scott does not intend to post new entries to his journal, although any messages he has for his website visitors will be archived here

JOURNAL: SEPTEMBER 30, 2001

Hello and welcome to ScottLowell.com! How odd to be even typing that domain name. For all the fans who have asked me to put together something like this I hope you enjoy it. Let's all make sure we bow down to Web-Mistress Annie for putting the site together. *Thunderous Applause* She's really created a cool site, I think. I'm VERY excited about it ... and for me to be this excited on the internet and not have it involve porn is REALLY saying something! I hope for a long time to come it will provide a way for us all to stay in touch and for me to let you know what I'm up to.
I've been back in Toronto since mid-August starting work on Season 2 of QAF. It's been really great to be back and to see so many familiar faces on the set. Many of our wonderful crew left work on other projects to come back and work with us again. I'm getting all misty just thinking about that. The work has gone along at its usual grueling pace (14 - 18 hour days) but our spirits remain high. Toronto is an incredible city (much like my old home Chicago) and I recommend a visit to anyone who has never been here ... before the temperature drops below zero.
We were shooting some exterior scenes on 9/11/01 as events were unfolding down in the US. I never felt so far away from home. We suspended shooting for the day as it all of a sudden seemed kind of stupid to be making a TV show in light of the cruelty that had occurred. The cast and producers gathered back at my apartment here. We spent all day watching CNN in shock, waiting to get through to our friends and loved ones in NYC. By evening everyone was accounted for. I hope the same is true for all of you.
It took me a few days to feel comfortable "acting" while the world seemed to be crumbling. A beautiful friend of mine sent me the following quote that really helped. I hope it makes anyone out there questioning the role of creativity in this world feel a renewed sense of purpose.
Note from Provincetown Players 1918
"Seven of the Provincetown Players are in the army or working for it in
France, and more are going. Not light-heartedly now, when civilization
itself is threatened with destruction, we who remain have determined to go
on next season with the work of our little theatre. It is often said that
theatrical entertainment in general is socially justified in this dark time
as a means of relaxing the strain of reality, and thus helping to keep us
sane. This may be true, but if more were not true--if we felt no deeper
value in dramatic art than entertainment--we would hardly have the heart
for it now. One faculty, we know, is going to be of vast importance to the
half-destroyed world--indispensable for its rebuilding--the faculty of
creative imagination. That spark of it which has given this group of ours
such life and meaning as we have is not so insignificant that we should now
let it die. The social justification which we feel to be valid now for
makers and players of plays is that they shall help keep alive in the world
the light of imagination. Without it the wreck of the world that was cannot
be cleared away and the new world shaped."
Until next we type.
Peace,
Scott Lowell

JOURNAL: OCTOBER 7, 2001

Happy Canadian Thanksgiving, eh! More than cooked Canadian Goose it means a long weekend for me and I couldn't be happier. The past week left me pretty exhausted but absoluteley fulfilled. After having to delay shooting for more than a week due to rain, we were finally able to shoot our big "Pride Parade" for a special "Pride Weekend" episode of QAF on Tuesday. The weather couldn't have been better. Sunny and warm bordering on hot. A great cheat for a June day that we were shooting in October. I'm sending a few photos of the day for Annie to post somewhere in this magical realm she's created. We worked from about 7 am 'til just past midnight. The huge crowd of extras seemed to have a great time. Amazingly their energy and the energy of our incredible crew never flagged. It felt like an actual parade at times. The "leather boys" wer constantly cheering me up (and frightening me a little) with shouts of: "We love you, Ted!" ... as well as other things I can't print here.
Wednesday I left at 6:30 am for a trip down to NYC to help out in a fundraiser with The Empire State Pride Agenda for victim's relief. Strange to be flying again. The airport in Toronto was deserted (but that may have been more because of the ungodly hour I was flying at) and there were about 5 people on my flight. I checked in my one bag just to play it safe and so as not to have to deal with the possible humiliation of having them open my bag at the security check-point and have everyone see my Curious George® and Superman© boxers. While waiting at the gate my name was called over the loudspeaker system to come to "The Counter" and my mind instantly ran through every item I had packed to see what embarassing thing they were going to haul me down to "The Room" and interrogate me about. "Please let it not be my 'Home of the Whopper' underwear," I prayed. Turns out they only wanted to thank me for flying "Business Class" with them (no sweat since Showtime™ was picking up the tab) and to invite me to enroll in "The Admiral's Club." "Sounds kinky," quoth I, "sign me up!" Finally I boarded. The pilot came out and spoke to us before the flight in a very somber fashion. He thanked us for flying with them and explained some of the new rules (ie. less time with seat belts unfastened light on, staying out of the aisles, only one person at a time waiting for the toilet by the cockpit, harder to open peanut bags) and that as wonderful as our flight attendents are and as much as they are here to help us, there may come a time that they need OUR assistance. So I hopped right up and sold some extra headphones I had for 5 bucks a pop and felt pretty good about myself.
As I was driven into the city from the airport I got my first view of the new New York skyline. The Empire State is once again the tallest structure and from it's height down to the end of the island ... nothing. A big gap. Not the skline I grew up with AT ALL. My breathing tightened just at that sight. I checked into the "W Hotel" at 39th and Lex. (loooooove those "W's") and met my best friend from growing up, radio documentarian and MacArthur Genius Grant winner David Isay, for lunch down in Soho near his office (check out his web site in my links area). So good to see him. Always my main connection to New York. He told me of his experiences on 9/11 and said he hopes to never see or hear such horrific things again in his life. The city filled with the sounds of people screaming is something he will never forget. After some calamari and chicken parmagiana I made my way down LaFayette towards "Ground Zero." The smell is something awful. My eyes stung. The city (already noticibly quieter than I have evr known it) gets quieter still. You can look down the side street and see twisted metal, burnt out buildings. It looks like Bosnia and so many war-torn places that have always seemed so far away when viewed on television. The shops on the nearby streets are now odd museums to the events. Their windows must have gotten blown out and all the ash and debris from the fallen buildings have coated all the goods and display cases inside in inches of white ash. It's like Pompeii. Frozen in time. People enter the shops and take photographs like at some ancient ruin. Futher up LaFayetta a bay of ATM's that have been covered in plastic become shrines from people to write their thoughts in prose and poetry. Flowers are stuck in barricades. I walk all the way back up to the hotel stunned but glad to have seen it with my own eyes. It finally seems real to me.
The night that followed was a perfect tonic. I went to see my friend Anjali Bhimani in the extraordinary play "Metamorphoses" at the Second Stage at 43rd and 8th (212-246-4422). Based on the texts of Ovid it presents several tales from ancient mythology (a love of mine) in a visually beautiful and often hilarious way and explores how we can continue to love in the face of great adversity among may other things. It's the work of the gifted Chicago director (and another Genius Grant winner) Mary Zimmerman. I had seen it in LA (after it had already been in Chicago, Seattle and Berkely) already but it still had a powerful and healing effect on me. See it if you can. Great live theatre ... nothing beats it!
This has gotten quite long, so I'll continue with my New York adventures in the next b-log (what the hell does that word mean anyway?) and tell you all about the amazing and moving time I had at the fundraiser Thursday night and how it relates to Mayor Giuliani possibly doing a walk-on on QAF! Will he be in drag again? Tune in next time ...

JOURNAL: OCTOBER 14, 2001

NYC pt 2.
After a day of visiting with other New York buddies I attended the Empire State Pride Agenda's annual Fall dinner (the main purpose of my trip). Ron Cowen (co-creator, Executive Producer/Writer of QAF and friend) was in attendance with me. The event was quite extraordinary. It was held at the gi-normous Sheraton Hotel and after we spent a half-hour in a room with a lot of caterers sitting around watching over a lot of food covered with saran wrap we realized that we were in th wrong room and finally found the pre-dinner cocktail party. There were over 1,100 people attending the event but Ron and I were fortunate to meet a half-dozen or so gay and lesbian police officers and firefighters. Extraordinary men and women all. Brave enough of them to be openly gay in such stereotypically homophobic orginizations, let alone to be faced with the enormous loss and dnager of the current situation in the city. Most had lost friends and colleagues close to them. After working to process all I had witnessed the day before meeting these brave men and women was an absolute honor for me. That they were so open and welcoming of Ron and I meant so much that night. For Det. Vivian Rodriguez to proudly show us pictures of the son she shares shares with her partner and let us know how much our show means to her (thoughts also expressed by a number of her fellow officers and firefighters) touched us more than any other tribute that night could have.
As the cocktail party continued I was fortunate enough to meet Gov. Pataki, who beside being incredibly tall looked as if he had just been introduced to his 12 billionth person but remained warm and the possibly soon-to-be next Mayor of New York, Mark Green. I also ran into a dear old friend from College who I hadn't seen since graduation, Eddie Castell, who is now working for the new NYC Comptroller. After the dinner I also ran into Benjamin Krevolin who had been a member of the theatre company that I originally moved out to Chicago to help start (called "The Anathong Ensemble" for you trivia buffs out there). As full as my heart was that night it damn near started a flood in seeing such "long lost" friends.
The dinner that followed continued the high. I arrived a little late from the cocktail party (along with the amazing Jackie Ioachim from Showtime® who hates having her name mentioned) and stood at the back of the room waiting to be seated while a wonderful gospel singer roared out "America the Beautiful." The group of police officers who stood in front of us held hands and/or hugged shoulders and, swaying with the music, sang along. We joined in with them and almost started to cry. Afterwards we were seated down near the stage. Marlo Thomas was the host for the evening and she was, dare I say it, That Girl! Ron and I were there to help auction off a walk-on part on QAF. It had been decided, however, that there would actually be two auctions. The first would be for a walk-on part for Mayor Giuliani (since he is renowned for dressing in drag). The money raised in that auction would go towards Giuliani's Twin Towers Fund for victims families. We raised $100,000.00! Zoinks! God bless the donors. [as a side note, when Giuliani finally arrived at the dinner he announced that he would actually do the walk-on if they could get the bid up to $200,000.00. The ESPA is currently working to make that goal.] The second auction was for the ESPA and after tempting the crowd with the prospect of "delicious" catered meals on the set consisting of "some kind of meat in a brown-ish sauce" we managed to raise an additional $32,500.00. Not a bad take for one night of "whoring." And I wasn't even sore after.
Both Gov. Pataki and Mayor Giuliani gave wonderfully moving speeches. Mayor Giuliani mentioned the fact that as right as it is that we are so focused on the numbers lost at the WTC on Sept. 11th we have lost sight of the fact that over 25,000 people were saved that terrible day. The Govenor and Mayor also unknowingly made the same exact point from different perspectives (Pataki speaking from the perspective of people fleeing the building looking towards the heroes rushing in to save them; Giuliani from the perspective of those rushing in looking towards those they wished to save) and it's a thought I will leave you with. During those awful moments no one was looking at each other, rescuer or victim, and wondering "Gee, I wonder if he/she's straight or gay or black or white or Latino or Asian or Christian or Muslim or Jew?" We waste so much time worrying about these things, but when it comes right down to it, at those moments of life or death decisions none of these things truly matter. We're all here to help each other and to be helped by each other. Let THAT be the legacy of this tragedy and we can truly start to heal.
And we can start by all making pudding for each other. Mmmmmmmmm, puuuuuudding *drooling*.
Here endeth the lesson.
Peace,
Scott Lowell

JOURNAL: OCTOBER 20, 2001

Just a brief log this week as I am heading back to Los Angeles for a week-long hiatus from QAF. The first two months of shooting has been a challenge. The second season is in many ways harder than the first. Last year no one, including myself, knew what to expect from our show. After the explosion of last season, expectations are much higher and with that comes the pressure to not only repeat last year's successes but to better them. After a somewhat stressful return to work in August, we're back to having just as much fun filming as we did last year. I wondered what territory our creators Ron & Dan and the writing staff would have left after last season - - especially what new humiliations they would come up with for Ted ;o) - - yet their delightfully twisted imaginations continue to plow new fields and have kept us delighted as much as I hope fans of the show will be when they see the new episodes in January.
Of course with all this extra effort to better ourselves comes exhaustion and so I am VERY glad for this break. I don't know HOW we did it last year (especially our incredible crew)! We shot from early July straight through to mid-December without a break. The cast gets an occasional day off here and there, but our crew is there EVERY day for every minute of the 14 - 18 hour days we put in and it wasn't really until the week before our Holiday Break last year that any of them got the least bit grouchy. They are truly an extraordinary bunch. Without them the show would not be what it is. So to them more than anyone I say: "Happy Fall Hiatus, eh!"

JOURNAL: OCTOBER 30, 2001

Back up North after an exhausting but fulfilling week in LA. I met with half a dozen wonderful and crazy Casting Directors all of whom I hope to work with in the near future. I also taped an appearance on a wacky new show called "Rendez View". If you haven't seen it, it's a combination of "Politically Incorrect" and "Blind Date". It's hosted by the hilarious Greg Proops and the spunky Ellen Ladowsky and basically we sit around and make snide remarks about a couple of hotties on a blind date. Well, I got off to a good start by mentioning that I thought the girl (a dead ringer for Traci Lords) looked familiar and that I thought I'd seen in her on some videos in the "back room" of the video store. The Legal people at Paramount didn't like that so we had to re-tape that segment. Ooops. The very funny Mo Collins (of "Mad TV") was my co-panelist and she was given the task of disputing everything I said. It was hard to do, I won't kid ya. You get to see the date a minute at a time and you have to find something going on in there that will give you something funny to say. The girl was insane, but you can't just focus on that for half-an-hour so I found myself looking for weird things going on and ignoring what they were babbling about. Alas, that left me a little lost when we talked about "the issues" of the date. But I did mention that I thought she was chewing an awful lot ON HER PUDDING!!! Okay, it turned out to be onion soup but it looked like PUDDING!! I also thought the guy was a male nurse when he was a lawyer and ... I guess I just screwed EVERYTHING up. But the audience made up of angry 17 year olds REALLY seemed to like me ... when I was given bite-sized Snickers® to throw them that is. I felt like sleeping for a week afterwards. No, really I had fun. I'll let you know when it airs so you can see my public humiliation for yourself.
On Saturday I got together with a bunch of my friends in Pan Pacific Park to play a game of Kickball©. I'm making it my life's task to make Kickball© our new national past-time. It combines all the great American sports: Baseball, Bowling, Dodge Ball and Running-Like-Hell. It's a sport anyone can play remotely well (even IF the title of my autobiography is going to be "Picked Last for Kickball©") It does not discriminate and truly brings a persons strengths and weaknesses glaringly to the surface in a noble struggle. We played for hours on end and I don't know when I've laughed so hard or ached so much the next day. When we finally took a break, our field was usurped by a Capture The Flag™ Club. I kid you not, they had "Flag Club" T-shirts and everything. They explained to me that our field was their usual field and that they had been waiting for us to finish. I told them that I had always played Capture The Flag™ in the woods. Seems kind of pointless playing it in a wide-open field. But, hey, they had the T-shirts so who the hell am I? I'll tell you the game just doesn't have the panache of Kickball©. Do yourself a favor. Get yourself a red playground ball, gather 12 - 20 of your friends and get a game going this weekend. You'll be glad you did.
Also, while back in LA I sorted through my many scrapbooks I've been keeping since I was twelve and brought a heap of photos tracing my "career" as an actor back to Toronto with me. I've scanned them all and sent them to my Web Wench, Annie. She'll be posting them little by little in order to lure you back to the site week after week. So if you want to see some humiliating pictures of me (as well as some damned fine ones) keep coming back, ya hear?
Speaking of Annie, this Sunday is her birthday. Make sure you inundate her with warm birthday wishes. She deserves 'em.
Peace.
Scott

JOURNAL: NOVEMBER 5, 2001

Well, so much for rest and recreation! The week back from hiatus pretty much has drained any good the week off might have done us up here. We ended up the week wrapping up our Friday shoot at 4 AM Saturday morning. That's how over-time we got as the week progressed. "But, Scott," you might say, "at least you got the weekend of to catch up on sleep." Alas, O gun-jumper, it was not to be. For we had to shoot promotional material for Showtime® all weekend long. You know, the big teaser commercial for the start of the second season as well as those little in between thingys where you'll see one of us saying with a wry look on our face: "You're watching Showtime®. No Limits™." It ended up being quite a cool shoot and I felt like a big crazy rock star ... in my own personal way. The set was a gigantic mock up of a Lite-Brite© as the background and a black, high-gloss floor underneath us. We each were a different color of the rainbow so that when we were all on the set at once ... My color was green. The camera swooshed around, some stuff was shot in slow-motion, the music was funky. For a brief period of time I was cool. I was hip. A pop star in the making. I was: "Sco Lo." I think the spots should come out pretty well. I'm the 5 days before and 2 days before cuckoo clock countdown message on the network before the premiere on January 6 (I'll let you do the math as to what days that would be.) I'll be in concert in a mall near you shortly after! Hee-hee-haw! Now where can I get a nose job ...

JOURNAL: NOVEMBER 12, 2001

Okay. I'm a freaky gadget geek. We all have our little addictions - - drugs, alcohol, clothes, boots, chocolate covered ants. Whatever. I have a penchant for shiny, new-fangled, buzzin' and whirrin' electronic gadgets. Unfortunately this addict met the ultimate pusher YEARS ago in a company called Apple®. Those rat-bastards know just how to get me. The design, the packaging ... it's all so space-aged and sexy and **drooling**. Over the years, even when I couldn't really afford it, I HAD to have the latest, coolest Apple® product out there. Well, now they've done it again with the iPod©. If you don't know what it is, go to their web site (www.apple.com) and see it and see if it doesn't do more for you than any amount of naked volleyball videos could do. I, myself, was unaware of this nifty little product until 2 weeks ago but I became obsessed with having one once I saw it's image rotating at me on the Apple® Home Page. It was just released yesterday. It's a 5 gigabyte MP3 player with a 10 hour rechargeable battery. It is smaller than a deck of cards and can hold 1,000 songs on it. 1,000 SONGS!! And it's digital so it doesn't get all skippy like my Sony™ Discman (circa 1995) does when I walk in my spastic lopey way. I can put almost all of my favorite songs from my entire collection onto this one little machine and carry it around with me and listen to ANY song WHENEVER I want! Needless to say I used every but of cunning I had to find the one store up in Canada that hadn't sold out their first shipment and pre-ordered with them earlier in the week. They called on Friday and told me I could come pick it up Saturday morning. Like a kid on Chrismas Eve - - or at least what I imaginge a kid on Christmas Eve must go through, with Channukah the prospect of another pair of socks or a belt on the 6th or 7th day never did much for me -- I struggled to sleep. Barely able to wait until the store opened in the morning. When it did, I hopped on my bike and tore through the streets of Toronto to my new love. There she was waiting for me in a box ALMOST as cool as the treat that awaited inside. Man, They even BOX the things all sexy like! Damn you, Steve Jobs and your den of electronic pimpery! Needless to say I've been spending every free minute downloading songs from my CD's into this little honey. I'm already at 468 songs and I haven't even gotten to my Elvis Costello stuff yet. Now I look for excuses to go on a walk JUST so I can bring my little iPod© with me. "Oh, no. I'll walk to Chicago and get you a REAL stuffed Pizza!" If you see me one day, all strung out, filthy and half-dressed on the street beseeching people for "a spare Powerbook©" just push me under the wheels of the next UPS truck that is driving by. Please? Thanks.
My downloading was interrupted yesterday for two events. In the afternoon I attended a panel discussion and Q&A session at the Gay Life and Style Show at the Metro Toronto Convention Centre. The cast and producers of QAF were all there (minus Gale and Sharon) and we had a blast. We honestly have such fun with each other and when we get into a crowd like that the big old hams in all of us can't help but surface. It was wonderfully moving (as always) to see so many fans and feel their appreciation for our efforts on the show. It was amusing to gaze out at the huge exposition going on there as well and see what "Gay Life and Style" was all about. In front of us: The Lube Booth. To our left: Erotic Leather. To our right: Wine!
Later that night I walked over (with my iPod©) to Michelle Clunie's fabulous loft apartment (the envy of anyone who has seen a "Brat Pack" movie) to have dinner with the cast, producers and writers of QAF (up from LA for a visit) and watch a sneak-preview of episode 2 of the second season. All false modesty aside: Wow! What a wonderful show I work on and what a tremendously talented group of people I work with. The dinner was followed by a party opened up to all our incredible crew of the show and ... well, when I left the party at 3 am I believe the line dancing had begun. Thanks, Michelle. It was quite a **passing out with a thud**.
On Friday night I went to go see a terrific film with Gale called: Together. My friend David Isay had recommended it to me and, as always, he was right. It's a Swedish film that takes place in a commune in the mid 70's. It started off a little slowly and at first we were a little worried, but it soon sucked us in with its completely unique characters and situations and a pseudo-documentary film style. If you can find it go see it. And if it's playing close to where you live, walk there ... hopefully with a nifty iPod© tucked in your pocket, bopping your head to one favorite song after another.
(Do you think I've sucked up enough now to Apple®? I'm hoping they'll make me one of their 'ho's.)
Peace.
Scott

JOURNAL: NOVEMBER 21, 2001

Well, it's Thanksgiving eve ... at least for everyone down in America. You see, up here in Canada they got their Turkey Day out of the way back when we were pretending to celebrate Columbus bumping into our continent. So while you all gorge yourselves on stuffing, green bean casserole (With Durkee® French Onion topping) and cranberry sauce still molded in the shape of a tin can think of your poor American QAF cast members stripping their souls (and butts) naked for your entertainment pleasure in the winter. Well, not SO poor. I am truly thankful to have such a wonderful job and I couldn't imagine a better group of friends to be "stranded" with over a holiday than this cast or crew or producers. Fortunately I will be able to fly down to Connecticut this weekend and join my mom and sister in a bit of Thanksgiving revelry ... although part of me can't help but remember the one Thanksgiving where my mom made Beef Stroganoff instead of Turkey and worry as to what will await me on Saturday evening. Well, I'll be thankful just to be down there ... especially after the two hour flight in the little 40 seat propellor plane I'm flying down in. Yikes! Buddy Holly, Richie Valens, the Big Bopper and ME???? Let's hope not. I am also quite thankful for the support of all of you who come visit this site. Whether it's to stare at some new crazy photo of me with a bad hair-do or read my ramblings or just to see if somehow an accidental picture of Gale Harold made it's way onto my site, I appreciate you making me feel wanted.
Today is also my niece, Rebecca's 11th birthday. I cannot believe she is already 11. Seems like yesterday when I was taking her to see her first play (a production of "101 Dalmations" in Omaha, Nebraska) now she's practically a nuclear scientist. Life sometimes seems to be passing at such a blinding speed that I am afraid to blink. Saw a trailer for the 20th Anniversary showing of E.T. 20 YEARS?!?!? My God. Time is ephemeral.
Now onto newsworthy things: Looks like I'll be taping "Open Mike: with Mike Bullard" up here in Toronto on December 4. Mike is Canada's answer to David Letterman. It'll be my first "talk show" so I'm really looking forward to it. Any Toronto fans should try and stop on by the studio at CTV. Also, we should be hearing any day now as to where we're going to be shipped off to during our January promotional tour for the show and season 1 DVD. Just shot a QAF set tour for Showtime® this morning with Peter Paige. I guess it will air as filler when some soft-core film ends before an hour is up. We had a lot of fun pretending that we really didn't get along, sniping at each other as soon as the other one was away from the camera... at least I was pretending ... hmmm ... Anyway, went to go see David Mamet's film HEIST the other day. The movie was pretty good, but even better was seeing the trailer for OCEANS 11 and seeing my buddy Eddie Jemison up there with Clooney, Pitt, Damon et al. I am so proud of him and the film actually looks like it's going to be a lot of fun. Can't wait to see it when it opens on Dec. 7! Hope you all catch it. He plays Livingston Dell, the computer techie of the heist team. After the film you can fight amongst yourselves as to who wants to start HIS fan site.
Happy Thanksgiving to you all!
Peace!
Scott

JOURNAL: NOVEMBER 29, 2001

Well, there was no Beef Stroganoff at my Mom’s, only a delicious turkey, ‘taters, fresh green beans (no Durkee®), cranberry sauce (not from the can but home made with orange peels and dried cherries - - go, Mom, GO!) apple crumble pie, my sister and a surprise dining guest. Not only is my mom an excellent cook but she’s a sneakster as well! She had secretly invited my music teacher from Elementary school who has also been a friend of the family for years, although I had not seen her since 1987.
Her name is JoAnn Wich and she is one of those enigmatic people who effected great change and growth in me at a young age. She was in charge of the instrumental music program at Beecher Rd. School, which I attended from 1st through 6th grade. This means she had the unenviable task of turning kids on to an instrument and then (even more frightening) turning them into a squeaking, squawking, clanking amalgamation of a band. Mrs. Wich did this with endless patience, calm encouragement and a sense of joy with each baby-step you would make (that made you want to learn faster and harder). She had a wonderful way of letting you find the instrument that was right for YOU. In 4th grade we started with the trumpet, which I probably picked because my brother was playing at the time and taking lessons from JoAnn’s husband, Bill. Alas, after only a few lessons, I got my first set of braces and I had to bid farewell to that instrument. My next sojourn was the piano. Now, this was more of a homespun idea. My brother was already quite good on the piano (multi-instrument show off!), my sister was well on her way to becoming the virtuoso she would be and my parents had recently bought a fancy new Steinway© Baby Grand for us to play on. What choice did I have (especially with a mouth full of wires)? Well, after 4 lessons and while I was attempting to plunk out the theme from “Dragnet” while I was supposed to be warming up our crazy teacher, literally, picked me up with his hands ‘round my throat, tossed me out of the room and informed me that there would be “no more lessons!” Humph. Finally the braces came off and Mrs. Wich suggested the French horn. I can still remember learning to play “Beautiful, Beautiful Brown Eyes” with her gently tapping out the rhythm. When it became clear that I had found the voice for my inner song she passed me on to her brother, Chuck Baxter who is an extraordinary Horn player and was part of the Eastern Brass Quintet with JoAnn’s husband, Bill. Playing the Horn became an important part of my creative development and life throughout Jr. and Senior High school. I remember vividly the enormous fear I had at playing solos in recitals (the slightest quiver of your lip and you sounded like a dying duck in heat) and how playing in an orchestra made me feel like I was part of this amazing music machine. I am so grateful to have experienced the joys of music through my Horn playing and I have JoAnn Wich (and Chuck Baxter) to thank for that. I often wish the Horn were an easy enough instrument to just pick back up and start playing Mozart Horn concertos whenever I wanted. Alas, my lip is a puny remnant of what it was back in 1983 (when I last TRULY played it) and I fear it would take months and months (if not years) of work to get it back into shape. Maybe there will come a time in my life when I have that kind of time and can reconnect with the Brass again.
In the meantime, I am extraordinarily proud of the fact that JoAnn has since become the head of the choir at my former prep school, Hopkins Grammar Day Prospect Hill School, founded 1660. She has been able to turn what was, while I was there, a talented but under-funded and under-motivated group into a worldwide force! Her talents as a teacher and her strength to fight “The Man” for the sake of “her kids” has found a true home and her success is a tribute to how many lives she has touched over the years.
I feel quite fortunate that I was able to tell her so much of this over the past weekend. It’s something we should all do for all of those who have taught us. Let them know: “I couldn’t have done it without you.”
So, thank you, JoAnn. And thank you, Mom for all your hard work in putting together a wonderful meal and for giving me such an incredible gift.
Peace.

JOURNAL: DECEMBER 10, 2001

It's been a crazy week and a few days since last I wrote. Shooting has been fast and furious as we head towards our Holiday break on the 22nd. Days have been ending at 3, 4 and 5 am the following mornings as the current episode is a bit of a "monster". I'm anxious to have the episodes start to air (although I've only seen the first 2 myself at this point) to see how the audience takes to the 2nd season. There's a new energy to the show after the first couple of episodes and I hope everyone will like the direction it's going. Hard for us to tell being in the middle of it, so in some ways we're as eager for January 6 to roll around as the fans of the show are.
Speaking of fans, it was wonderful to have a little gaggle of 'em out at my taping of Open Mike: with Mike Bullard last week. It was a bit surreal being on a talk show like that - - I feel like I had a prototypical experience. I was the first guest and then after me ... ANIMALS FROM THE ZOO! I swear I felt like I was tripping and hallucinating that I was on an old episode of "The Tonight Show." There was the standard moment of one of the animals getting a little wacky and jumping on the host’s desk and causing mayhem as the audience rolls with laughter and the guests shrink in horror. Rupert Pupkin and me, living out our talk show fantasies. It really was a lot of fun and Mike was a wonderful host in all senses of the word. The whole staff there at the show is great, as a matter of fact. My segment producer, Ben Rotterman, was a hoot - - there was part of me (and him I think) that wanted him to actually be an 80 year-old ex Catskill comedian rather than a producer. I was a bit nervous to do the show as I'm never quite sure if the stories I have to tell are interesting to anyone but me ... and yet no one fell asleep. Whew. There were moments, however, when I forgot that I was the guest and not just watching the show and I would sit back and just laugh at Mike's jokes and then remind myself: "Oh, yeah ... you need to SAY something! That's why you're here." I could have talked a lot longer about my days doing warm-up for The Jenny Jones Show as it was one adventure after another there ... but my segment was only slotted for 8 minutes and the HAD to get to the animals, for God's sake! I got a lovely embossed coffee mug to take home, though. SO all is well. They're hoping I'll be able to visit them again before we wrap up here in April.
When I haven't been shooting and, you know, shmoozing on Canadian talk shows I've been working feverishly to finish editing my home movie of stuff I experienced last year making QAF. I want to give it to cast and crew as a Holiday gift. It's been great reliving the extraordinary times we went through during the first season. Just after we started shooting, Tony Jonas (one of our Executive Producers) said to us: "Savor this experience, the good and the bad, because who knows if ANY of us will ever experience something like this again in our lives." I went out and bought a video camera the next day. I shot on the set. I shot at our cast dinners, birthday parties and outings. I shot at the premieres in New York and LA. It was an incredible time. I DON'T know if I'll ever go through an experience like that again in my life. Tony was right. I thank him for saying that, because having this tape of a fraction of the experiences helps keep it alive for me - - and hopefully the cast and crew will feel the same way. I'm pretty lucky to have shared in that with so many wonderful people. As we trudge our way through the second season without all the excitement, adrenaline and nerves it's nice to be reminded of what we went through last year and how important it is that we're making this show.
Finally got to see OCEANS 11 on Sunday. Went with Peter and Randy and our friends Dede and Tera. It's a greatly entertaining movie and my friend Eddie (as the ever-sweaty Livingston Dell) just made me smile every time he was on that big ol' screen. If you haven't reached that stage in your life where you get to see some of the people closest to you in your life achieve their goals and start to come into their own after years of toiling away ... well ... you've got quite a treat coming to you. It's SO gratifying to see that nice guys (and gals) can and DO succeed without compromising their souls. It filled me with such "Naches" to see Eddie up there with George and Brad and Matt and the rest of Hollywood's "A list", holding his own and making his presence felt. You can visit the official web site for the movie (Oceans 11) to read more about him. Try and see the movie if you can. I think you'll have a good time. Even more importantly, tell a friend of yours who's struggling right now that you believe in him/her. It may lead to a wide smile on your face down the road.
Well, I'm just about done editing my movie so I'm going to get back to that. I want to have it finished in time for the big QAF Holiday party going on this weekend here in beautiful downtown Toronto. I'll let you know how it goes before I head off on vacation and disappear 'til mid-January.
Peace.
Scott

JOURNAL: DECEMBER 18, 2001

4 more days! 4 more days ‘til my holiday break begins and with it my first true vacation since1985! “How can that be,” you say? Easy. Here’s a recipe for never relaxing. First, move away from your family and where you grew up. This insures that every free week that you might get along the way NEEDS to be spent traveling to see family members and friends because it’s been at least 6 months or a year (or more) since you’ve seen them and that’s just crazy. * note: it’s even better if family is spread across the country thereby insuring that you can’t see them all in “one fell swoop.”
Next, spend at least the first ten years of your adult life “just scraping by” so that you can’t really afford to go anywhere because rent ALWAYS seems to be due. *note: another helpful tip here is to buy a car that seems to know just when you’re “getting ahead of the game” so that it can choose that time to break down and need at least $1,000.00 worth of repairs.
Next, choose a profession in which you NEVER know where your next paycheck is coming from or if you’ll ever work again. This will force you to be CONSTANTLY searching for work even while you should be enjoying what you are currently working on. And you wouldn’t DREAM of going out of town, ‘cause what if you should miss an opportunity to try for another job that could be “the one”?!?!?
Finally after years of struggle move to a glorious city that seems like a vacation unto itself but in reality has a secret curse on it. The curse is that while you are there you search for work even harder. You’ll go months searching and searching with nothing happening. Scrambling for work and scrambling to see friends. Just when you feel like “I’ve been sitting on my ass for months” and you think it’s safe to go away (because nothing is happening after all) and are even so bold as to purchase a plane ticket to go somewhere - - BAM! You end up getting work or at least a bright prospect for it. SO you have to cancel that trip or at least cut it short. You may move to that wonderful sunny city, but once you do … YOU MAY NEVER LEAVE!
Follow this recipe exactly and I’m sure you’ll find yourself in the same predicament that I have been in. For extra insurance add in needing to buy a condo to off-set a very sudden rise in income and the fact that you are forced to work in Canada so you that you end up owing a kajillion dollars to the US government. This will positively insure that even when you KNOW you’ve got a job waiting for you and you can finally afford to go away … you CAN’T afford to go away anymore.
So, it is with a grateful sigh and an appreciation for all the blessings and good fortune in my life that I finally, after 16 years, head off to an island in the Pacific. Now I only hope I can remember how to actually relax.
I wish you all the happiest of holidays and as much joy and success as you can stomach in the New Year!
Peace!
Scott

@темы: Scott Lowell

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It makes me feel like Randy Harrison is not a human being to them.(с)Randy Harrison

ты прав, ренди, ты не человек для фандома
с людьми так не поступают

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к "Kiss me alright")

чудесные иллюстрации) автор  magic dance

@темы: картинки, Kiss me alright

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может я чего-то не поняла

но у меня появилось странное ощущение, что Джуди (Judy darling - тусовка нью-йоркская, рендиного бф и его друзей) в русскоязычном фандоме, стала приобретать черты личности, человека мужского пола
уж не знаю, откуда такая "инфа" пошла, но на всякий - нет такого человека,
нет, есть просто ребята, которые уже несколько лет устраивают эти пати, которые называются Джуди, еще с колледжа, с флориды. (об этом рассказывала девочка, которая туда давно ходит) и Джуди женского рода

Judy is a queer dance party that wants to create space for our community to cohere in sweat and music! She wants to support creative energy and provide a party for people to make art, dress up, perform, and above all DANCE!

@темы: Judy

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хмм)

"Сенат американского штата Нью-Йорк поздно вечером в пятницу проголосовал за легализацию однополых браков"

помнится брайан как-то шутил на эту тему, типа что у них с ренди есть дочка и они поженятся, когда в НЙ разрешат однополые браки)) не сказать, что мне в это очень верится, ну вот что прям возьмут и..., но ыыы.... ))

@темы: Рэнди фейсбук, Randy&Brian

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Дополнительные материалы с ДВД (1-5) Без русской озвучки!

что есть с сабами, то есть, чего нет - то в оригинале.
я в принципе закончила еще в апреле, но так и не собралась тогда поднять))
а тут у меня ссылку на него попросили, ну и... местами кое-какие мелкие пробелы и непонятки с такими вещами как промо-анонсы и рекламы остались, но... как есть.. вдруг кому еще пригодится))


длительное путанное объяснение) сорри) (можно не читать))

безумие, конечно, что именно я этим занялась, слишком для меня ммм... масштабно) в плане того, слишком много надо скачать, понять как называется, соотнести, вписать и вообще разобраться..
и большинство наверное все это уже видело, но...
путаница, сэр (с) (и я кстати сама смотрела отнюдь не все, так что б от начала и до конца)
допы - выходили с отдельными сезонами на двд и с в полном издании. Насколько я понимаю, в получилась некоторая разница в наборе, и я так понимаю, что нет места, где можно скачать все, много всего есть в старой раздаче, но с озвучкой, а у меня цель собрать все, что выходило в доп материалах, БЕЗ русской озвучки, и наилучшем, которое только можно найти качестве
качество, тоже проблема - у меня много чего есть, точнее практически все, часть вообще в очень приличном качестве, а часть вроде как в качестве, но с полосочками интерлейсинга (хотя он меньше в общем и целом, чем в раздаче на рутрекере)... я даже могу его убрать, но в VD эти авишки не засовываются, а переконвертировать, а уж потом убирать... только качество картинки упадет, при моих уменях и терпении)) вообще все эти переконвертации приличный гимор и куча времени. кое-где помечала, что интерлейсинг есть есть, кое где нет)
но вообще - все файлы это рипы, avi

Так что пока, все выложу как есть, НО если кто-то знает, где взять качество еще лучше, хотя оно и тут в общем хорошее - вэлкам. Давайте соберем что и как можем, по максимуму... и тогда я потом в соо все это выложу.

названия - отдельный гимор, самый яркий пример это - Behind the scenes outtakes* (оно же блуперсы, оно же bloopers, оно же Wrap Party Reel, оно же Gag Reels) - если я уже окончательно не запуталась)) но и с остальным хватает... файлы ходят по сети и часто по названию, соостнести это со списком допов вообще не возможно, да и сам список (точнее списки, потому что отдельные издания и полное издание - и состав и названия кое в чем отличаются вроде, брр)... я так местами и не поняла, что и как обозвать, и из какой рубрики оно), и делала по отдельным сезонам, а не с полного издания, теперь бы еще понять, не потерялось ли при подбрке что-нибудь))
вобщем помощь тех, кто в видео квировском разбирается, мне бы не помешала))

что есть в приличном качестве с русскими сабами, ссылки на скачивание будут вести в queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html не на сами файлы, но там все легко найти, естественно) (если там есть, а у меня не указано, скажите тоже, плиз))

ну и для начала первые два сезона (сразу все я точно не осилю загружать-описывать)) если увидели, что где-то в чем то у меня ошибки, путаница, - дайте знать, плииз) и надо бы еще сделать список, соотнести все с названиями из старой раздачи на трекере, но не прямо сейчас...

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season 1 22 Episodes on 6 discs
DVD Features:

Scene introductions by Hal Sparks - оно же Extended Scenes Introduced By Hal Sparks - 00:17:21 600x450 180mb www.megaupload.com/?d=OBT48G2D (сцены не вошедшие в первый сезон)
Behind the scenes outtakes* queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html
"Meet The Folk" section containing biographies, interviews and character profiles
Meet The Folk - 00:09:40 600x456 105mb www.megaupload.com/?d=A9SR3IRW отличное качество (видимо оно, но как точно назвть не поняла, на ютубе оно redzone )

Season 2 Sneak Preview
(не уверена, оно это или нет) QAF returns Jan 6 2002 - 00:05:33 600x338 45 mb (кадры из первых серий 2-го сезона, легкий интерлейсинг) www.megaupload.com/?d=PACZI4PX

Music Photo Gallery (00:03:58 640x478 41 mb) www.megaupload.com/?d=5P9NMI9X

Episodic Index, previews & summaries

Season 2 Promo Spot эээ.. вот тут тоже не уверена, что именно тут должно быть, может те разноцветные промки.. где-то они у меня вроде есть в норм качестве, но найти не могу или анонс

Approximately 3 hrs of special edition episodes & commentaries - queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html#cuti...

DVD ROM weblink

Не уверена откуда именно (из какой рубрики)
Hal Sparks unaired scene - 00:00:42 600x380 6,30mb (перед телеком он сидит) www.megaupload.com/?d=LMLL5GUE
анонс 2s или что-то типа - 00:03:24 600x454 36 mb (кадры из первого сезона, потом из промо 1-го сезона all new season starts Jan 6 2002 Only on Showtime, инетрлейсинг) www.megaupload.com/?d=DI7GTWR4
анонс 2-го, выдрала часть собственно анонс, без сцен, Only on Showtime, интерлейсинг убрала, но оно и на ютубе в нормальном качестве вроде, хотя картинка меньше www.megaupload.com/?d=8GN66R3G (я так и не понимаю, промо это, или нет)
реклама Showtime 2s - (шла кажется перед эпизодами - ниче интересного) 00:01:05 600x364 8,8mb www.megaupload.com/?d=JS6RM2CU

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season 2
20 Episodes on 6 discs
DVD Features:

Folks on the Road: A Backstage Pass 00:14:56 600x446 150mb www.megaupload.com/?d=CGTH2874 кач хор
(queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html тут теперь оно с сабами есть)

A Day in the Life of Queer as Folk:
Our Favorite Sets and Costumes 00:11:50 600x450 120 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=4XP2X8GM кач хор (а тут теперь и сабами queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html)
The Challenges 00:12:15 512x368 153 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=BZ4E10YB качество хорошее

What Is It About Babylon? 00:13:52 640x478 157 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=DU9DMXXC

Wrap Party Reel* queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html#cuti...

The Unexpurgated Lady in Pearls - нету (в раздаче на рутреке это "как сделать ремонт дома"

Rage Gay Crusader: The Comic Book - формат jpg, с раздачи на рутрекере

The Making of Rage Gay Crusader 00:31:23 640х480 www.megaupload.com/?d=HGUO05IC (avi) www.megaupload.com/?d=ZMOC9GNF (сабы LadyVanilla (Ольга Бродская)) - все с рутрекера

2002 Queer as Folk Summer Pride Tour 00:08:45 600x446 80mb www.megaupload.com/?d=WTD5L3HC

The Folks (Easter Eggs - hidden blooper - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=ZMXCEPPV - подборка -Дебби отвешивает Майклу оплеухи)

Thea Gill - 00:00:32 600x456 5mb www.megaupload.com/?d=8BLJJN8G
Peter Paige - 00:00:27 600x454 4mb www.megaupload.com/?d=VIQHI5CC
Hal Sparks - 00:00:20 600x460 3,3 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=NCHMOP90
Michelle Clunie - 00:00:25 600x452 4 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=PBY90HUR
Sharon Gless - 00:00:28 600x452 5 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=YFS7G24V
Scott Lowell - 00:00:12 600x452 2,3 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=HGXY4CAQ
Randy Harrison - 00:00:18 600x442 2,6 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=IE1WNAON
Gale Harold - 00:01:26 600x452 14 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=1QVZLJQL

TV spots 00:01:05 600x364 8mb видимо оно www.megaupload.com/?d=JS6RM2CU
Animated photo gallery - 00:03:29 720x404 38 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=AJMG5VIO
Season 3 sneak peek 00:02:34 600x300 20mb - возвращается 2-го марта 2003 (кач фиговое, и это просто кадры из 3-го сезона) www.megaupload.com/?d=0DGB7PT8
Queer Duck preview - превью мультика, щас чето не нашла, добавлю потом


уфф... )
3-ий сезон... в нем некоторые пропуски, хотя все самое важное на мой взгляд есть) но надо и остальное бы для порядку...

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season 3
14 Episodes on 5 discs
DVD Features
Cast and crew commentary on three episodes - не очень пока поняла что это вообще
"Behind the Camera: The Director's" 00:15:35 640x480 176 мб www.megaupload.com/?d=LLL0DLVX
Behind the camera. With Cast and Crew - (00:26:35 512x384 446mb) www.megaupload.com/?d=CJIMVRI9
"Hot Summer Days" - 00:32:39 600X450 330 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=2OXUPYD4
"Wrap Party Reel" - (bloopers) queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html#cuti...
"Enter Babylon: Los Angeles" - 00:12:13 600x450 122 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=R0F3VZED
Music video "Some Lovin'" by Murk vs. Kristine W - www.megaupload.com/?d=JU0OGKYP

Quotes, Folks, & Notes - (Easter Egg - Hidden Blooper - блупер с майклом http://www.megaupload.com/?d=2CD4Z6I1 blooper from the scene where Micheal is at the sperm clinic)
Animated photo gallery 00:04:05 640x478 46mb www.megaupload.com/?d=BVUO6HAV
Season 4 sneak peak - там вроде просто кадры из 4-го сезона, у меня есть что-то но не уверна, что это оно
TV spots and trailers -не нашла в получше качестве, хотя кажется было у меня, поищу еще, хотя небось полосатое
HIV/Aids: Empower Yourself - вроде есть, но чето не могу сейчас найти, а может и нету.
Cash Offer
The Roman Spring of Mrs. Stone
Penn & Teller: Bullshit!

314 Cast & Crew Commentary - 00:51:00 640х384 FLV 481mb www.megaupload.com/?d=4UQR9U8X
ваще для меня некоторая загадка, выходил он вроде и только в полной версии, но и с третьим сезоном... но вот в списке допов там его нет

мало того, он мне кроме как вот в том качестве, в каком он есть в контакте - мне не попадался, точнее он мне вообще больше нигде не попадался... так что залившему во вконтакт спасибо большое...
качество - вполне смотрибельно, так что за неимением другого в принципе... но все-таки хотелось бы найти получше)

в старой раздаче на трекере
aktery semochnaya gruppa[1].avi - Behind the camera. With Cast and Crew
Animirovannaya fotogalereya.avi
Goryachie letnie denki[1].avi - "Hot Summer Days"
Isporchennye dubli.avi - "Wrap Party Reel"
Prevyu 4-go sezona.avi
Rasskaz o lyudyah snimavshih[1].avi - "Behind the Camera: The Director's"
reklama.rar
reklamnye roliki.avi
Some Lovin[1].avi
Vavilon[1].avi.001.avi - "Enter Babylon: Los Angeles"

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season 414 Episodes on 5 discs
DVD Features:
Behind the Babylon Tour/ Los Angeles 00:05:11 640x480 58mb www.megaupload.com/?d=9QBMFFCZ
The Wardrobe Closet - текстовый рассказ о том, как и где одеваются главные персонажи сериала
Behind the Scenes of Peter Directorial Debut, "Say Uncle" - 00:06:17 720x480 60mb www.megaupload.com/?d=3F6P1RO0 (взято из старой раздачи на рутрекере)
Peter's "Say Uncle" Trailer - 00:01:01 720x480 11,5 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=XXL8XSJN(взято из старой раздачи на рутрекере, качество фиговое)
Sneak Peek of Michelle's and Gale's Movie, "The Unseen" - 00:06:41 640х372 58 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=NM72CAG8
Photogallery 00:03:04 720x404 33mb www.megaupload.com/?d=QH0CB09V
Biographies
Previews
1 (реклама двд - кадры из промо, с премьеры, и сцен 4-го сезона) - 00:02:06 640x362 18 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=HTMMBWBY

всякая реклама, не интересная и две подборки кадров из 4-го сезона, из раздачи на рутрекере, просто для комплекту NEW_title06 - www.megaupload.com/?d=LGWWBMEG
NEW_title07 - www.megaupload.com/?d=7VVAK4WQ
NEW_title17 - www.megaupload.com/?d=Q0JAIDIC
NEW_title18 - www.megaupload.com/?d=NUJF3IQ6
NEW_title19 - www.megaupload.com/?d=O5LLMGSJ

Win an Atlantis Cruise! - 00:02:29 640x384 19mb www.megaupload.com/?d=WCE14I63

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season 513 Episodes on 5 discs
+ QaF Special: Saying Goodbye
DVD Features:
Cyndi Lauper "Shine" music video - 00:03:51 640x368 34 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=W0G5OQJD
Rosie O'Donnell photo montage 00:04:24 640x478 50mb www.megaupload.com/?d=S1TF5DGP
Season finale wrap party reel queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html

Season finale extended scenes
Brian and Michael at Lunch - 00:01:56 640x414 19mb www.megaupload.com/?d=D8UHHEQ1
Brian and Justin's Wedding Rehearsal - 00:01:56 640x414 19 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=CB7QAHID
Brian's Stag Party at Woody's - 00:00:55 640x414 9 mb www.megavideo.com/?d=Y38GMCX2
Mel and Lindsday's Memories - 00:02:49 640x414 28 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=KDZ4C686
Justin's Gift of Art - 00:02:38 640x414 26 mb www.megavideo.com/?d=QAFQILCU
The New Kid on the Block - 00:01:21 13 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=TYC86SGU

Patrick Antosh fashion extra - 00:03:28 640x342 27 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=A0M0TRPE
A special message from The Trevor Project and Queer as Folk - 00:02:52 640x480 32mb www.megaupload.com/?d=29PEWDWD
SHO Original - 00:03:43 640x480 41 mb www.megaupload.com/?d=C5O4Q5V0
Sneak peek of Noah's Arc from LOGO Network
Queer as Folk merchandise sweepstakes (The "Love & Pride" Jewelry Collection, Win a Trip to Gay Britain!, Showtime Entertainment Previews, Liza With a "Z"
Sleeper Cell, The L Word Season 3)

QaF Special: Saying Goodbye - queerasfolk-rus.livejournal.com/14258.html

QAF 2007 Reunion lunch http://www.megaupload.com/?d=NQVOX3CJ
файл огромный 1.8 гб кажется, качество фиговое (но в другом виде единым файлом мне не попадалось нигде, и это то я качала с рапиды в виде архива из 17 вроде частей, караул...)

запись создана: 17.02.2011 в 12:21

@темы: видео, дополнительные материалы, Queer as Folk, DVD Features

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Фик по квирам в радиоэфире!) представляете?)

помните замечательный фик авторста  Curly_Sue "Жил был король" ? пьяная сказка))
(если кто не помнит, то почитать его можно например тут moveforever.diary.ru/p124423292.htm )

а сегодня его можно будет еще послушать!)
вот тут multi-radio.net/
в 23.30
(на время, указанное на сайте внимания не обращать))

удивительно и прекрасно же)
хоть мои интернеты и не позволят мне послушать, увы)